Never Again

never again so
Naive;
you sip and smile and laugh
oblivious to where you'll be in a few short hours
Alcohol;
the bile fills your throat
it burns as it rises
Mistakes;
your judgement slips momentarily
these brainless choices, inescapeable
Regret;
salty tears drip down your face,
your mascara stained cheeks, sore
Guilt;
unsettled and churning in your stomach
burned into your brain, it feels like forever
Blame;
try to push the fault aside
weave lies and insist on fabricated excuses
But there is no escape
We have to live with
The things we bring on ourselves
And carry us as we go
Forever darkened,
Forever changed,
Never Again.